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>>>>>>Solitary Soul<<<<<<Peaceful...Simple...Quiet...Normal...Restful... 5月17日 What an End...The destiny is really satiric......isn't it??
My winter always comes when it's Spring in this fucking reality...... always in the middle of May......
It finally came... What a sudden that i can't react or take...
No witness... No rumors...
YOU told me everything that you had never mentioned....
But......
I'm happy and gratified that u can be open and honest to me...
I can't ask for more......
I'm telling u the TRUTH!!!
Finally, I found that there is a man staying by ur side...... Ur lovely BOYFRIEND.....
There are just some misunderstandings and problems between u two......
Every couple have to face and solve them in the end, don't they???
They r only episodes of ur love stories, which features with anger, gloom and sorrow...
Ur still the key part of each other's.......
It's ALL my fault!!!!!!!!
I was not able to find the real me in ur heart......
I was blind by those happy moments which r really common and nonsense in the eyes of others....
I was unable to read the meaning of love......
No progress ever happened...... No sparks ever occurred......
Every trace was nothin' but illusion
The time we knew each other was coincidentally the time when the problem of u two just occurred......
It's a damm destiny that I have to agree with.
In that period of time, my passion, sometimes might make u feel awkward.....
However, YOU said...
I had given u some happiness...... I could made u smile at times......
YOU said...
It's a nice thin' to know me as an acquaintance cuz i'm honest & tolerant......cuz i'm not a bad guy in ur eyes....
I'm happy cuz i can make u smile
I feel grateful cuz u treat me good......
In my eyes, this is such a gift that i was not dare to long for in my life so far!!!
Those words and smile from the bottom ur heart are more valuable than any other thing in the world!!!
Don't say sorry!!! There's nothin' u did wrong to me......
You don't have the responsibility of telling me the truth before i make a confess......
I can't long for more since u have told me so many things in ur heart...
Don't be sorry... Otherwise, I will suffer more sorrow that i can't afford......
Thanks for telling me that i worth ur trust and i haven't made u afraid or disgusted......
Thanks for regarding me as a good guy......
That's it!!!!!!
Time to quit......
Live alone and enjoy a solo life......
Maybe it's waaaaaay better for me..........
Live a life of my own.........be less emotional & less sensitive.......
The coming of my 1st love was delayed........it is what i cant help w/.........
It's all about destiny.....
It's all about fate......
Don't ever try to challenge the rules or i would get punished......
YOU r toooooooooo outstanding for me to have you by my side.....
THANK U FOR EVERYTING inTHESE DAYS ! ! !
12月28日 Shitty...Crappy...Played a match with School of Politics today......It should be the 3rd time in this semester. The score is 62-59, we won it and put the series into a 2W1L status.......
I think all of us did a good job in the 2nd half and made their kicking back in vain in the 4th qtr......Our defense in that qtr helped to hold our advantage till the buzzer......really have to give credits to our team denfense.
But we still face big problems.......First, turnovers almost killed us. They got many easy baskets which were from our TOs and their off.rebs.......Second, we nearly lost control of ourselves in our def.rebs protection...I can remember that , in the 1st qtr, they got 5 off.rebs in a run and suddenly punched us with a 8-0 run.......Third, all of us were too impatient to take care of the ball. Many crazy shots and
blind passes just ruined our offensive sequence easily.......We experienced a very low shot percentage period in the 1st qtr and almost no off.rebs assisted.......The ball moving is stagnated since our off.awareness failed us again.
I'm disappointed with myself......It seems that the practice during the past 2 months did not help me any to keep improving......I'm appointed to be a PG when our new coach firstly come. And I was very excited and suprised that i could be regarded as a key part of the team......I paid much time to get my ball-handling and shooting better......watched many videos to see how top PGs direct the offsence. However, after some games, i still play like shit as a PG......I'm not as decisive as a PG should be.......My passing is so crappy that i have the ability to turn the ball over for 3 times in a roll, which made our C and PF can't help but sigh......My crossover is not a threat at all. More often i was shaked by myself as my shitty dribbling ruined me on the drive attempts, and the ball is easily steal by the defender.......
Thanks to King Kong, who could play PG very well.......When he came into the game, amazing changes happenned in a sudden. The disorganized off.sequence was completely reversed to be a smooth one.......We caught up with them and then took the lead......Though i felt perfect to play game with him since his pass could always come in the right place at the right time, and all i need was driving to the rim or taking the open shot, i still feel depressed.......His excellence proves my huge weakness as a PG........The team was renewed under his direction while it turned to be a mess uner mine.........What if King Kong did not play? ...What if he got into foul trouble in the game? ...What if he is injuried?...What if he had a bad night or over-exhausted?......Some one got to step up and take over this job..........If we don't have a good bench PG, there's no chance for us to win in tough matches............However, i just witness my bads and poor jobs when i played PG..........sympathetic and depressing.........
My coach really put big expectation on me, hoping that i could be a good PG who lead the team to win...........I know i cant be like this any more and have to change.........yes, i know i have to keep practicing and learning, but how???.......a little lost and confused by how to improve myself to next level........I tremble since i cant find a right way to solve my problem..........where is it?????
Please tell me what makes a player a good PG..........i'm afraid that i got to discover it by myself once again.........another tough time is coming..... 11月5日 DilemmaChoices make up the road of human's life.
U have to get ready for any kind of situations which force u to choose. Sometimes u r waiting for one chance while another chance is waiting for u. Sometimes u r waiting for someone u love while someone loving u is waiting for ur response. U can't gain both since they r against each other...... Here, time makes a little joke on us......testing us if we can find the way out...... And it's really tough to make up ur mind in a very short time...... Pick the job u r eager for or the post calls on u while u have no interest in......??? Choose the girl u love most or the girl loves u most......??? Dilemma is inevitable for every one........ I witnessed a horrible quake around me......The original system is collapsing......
Got to hold on......bring any thin' inspring to save it before it's tooooooo late~~~~~
But HOW?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..............
Is it born to turn to be like this f*cking mess......???!!!
Time for me to QUIT~~~??? 8月3日 Intership......Finally I got a chance to have my internship......Not so late but everything has been out of my original plan for the whole vacation.
I have to suffer for 2 weeks when I have no time or place to play basketball. All my training schedule has to be suspended due to my work.
Fortunately, I'm doing my job in the foreign affairs department of CBA.......What I do every day is nothing but basketball.
Unfortunately, the work is maddening.......I have to face endless translating work......Requisitions, invitations and tournament schedules can drive me crazy......The amount of the translating work per day is almost triple times as I did in coll in one week ! ! ! ! ! !...........And it makes me have no time for practicing......I feel myself watching the work ruining my body......
I have to go to the gym every night after work in order to keep conditioned for fundamental need......However, it's far from enough to keep every thing as it was before......No place for 17-60s and long runnings......I have to face a big
retrogression of my playing 2 weeks before the beginning of the new semester......Time will be quite limited for me to pick what I'd lost up again, saying nothing of getting some improvement.......Hope that things won't go that bad......I have nothin' to lose actually.
I can't help myself loving basketball......have soooooo much passion in it........That's why I want to hunt a job related to basketball......Nothin' in my life could motivate me this much... 7月4日 New Summer's Coming...Final exams are over......
I indulged myself in basketball for more than 2 hours with nothin' to worry about.......Already thrown those damned useless knowledge far away from my mind when I stepped out the examination room......I ran several laps for warm-up...Got a little tired 'cuz I had not do long running for some days...Then I made some 17-60s, slidings, footfires, handling, free-throws and pull-up jumper one by one.......I show no laziness and went all out in every move and every detail instead.......Now I really feel a little exhausted. But it's a great feeling that I have not experienced since I began to review my classes comprehensively....... Actually, I do not feel relax right now as I have sth else to worry about......We juniors must take internship in this summer. It's quite hard to get such a chance since there are so many college students are seeking for one for themselves at the same time.......The searching work is tough, and requires luck indeed......Now I have no where to go while many of my classmates have already got things in track.......This makes me more anxious about my problem......Although my father might help me with this as he works here, I would not like him to give me a hand on this much. In my opinion, it's quite unfair to others if I asked my parents for help......Others may feel dissatisfied or even angry about what I've done as I take an advantage. And in this sense I'm a son of a bitch in this invisible competition......That's why I'm hesitated whether to turn to my father...... If I get one successfully, I will pay at least 2 weeks on my internship. So I'm able to go back to Jinan no earlier than early August. And that means I just less than 1 month for basketball training......It's really a huge cost to me......Days ago I watched a teaching video "Better Basketball", and I found myself ignorant about those critical fundamentals......I have so much to learn and master if I want advancing consistently and be competitve to be a Capt.. However, I have to take my internship seriously 'cuz it's so important to my career in the future. This expense on basketball is inevitable any how.......It seems that I need to make the best use of the condition while I'm staying in Beijing to keep myself conditioned and skilled on those fundamentals I've learned this semester. Wish myself good luck this summer......It's more complicated and busy than ever......I have to make these 7 weeks efficiently. Wasting any second will make me regreted if I did. 6月1日 On the Verge of Disaster...Detroit, what da hell are u doing!!!???......
Ur offense gets stuck and ur defense is no more tough as before......
U guys can not stop LBJ from scoring in the last 3 games......Even u get him in trap, he still got help his teammates score by giving great dishes......"King James" is ruining u guys while u can not help......WHY????!!!!!
LBJ, himself, destories the whole Pistons......In critical moments, he could step up and pull his team back from the deadline......But what were u guys doing???!!!......U guys just played passively and sloppy......(Antonio McDyess!!! U r ruining ur team by such a ridiculous foul!!! If u gonna be suspended next game and Cavs kick ur ass in their home, I would like to see u guys lose as u r not competitive to rival with Spurs in the Finals......)
Cavs has led this series by 3-2......It's almost no differences from the last season's Eastern Semi Finals......Detroit was leading by 2-0, and then thery experienced a 3 straight losses......Fortunately, they advanced by playing 2 tough games. But now the Pistons is not as good as before......U guys lost a super shield: Ben Wallace is gone......If u don't want to have a nightmare and get out of this damned trap, u gonna wake up and do ur best at any cost to make yourselves survive like the last year.......
More hardworiking and tougher......That's what u guys live on in this league......
U guys have nothin' to lose...............
(PS: Lebron James...I have to say u are one of the greatest players in the league. U've done such a excellent job that others can not make, especially in today's game......U dominated the game and give a big win for ur team......If u guys advance, I will not complain about anything 'cuz u are competitve to be a rival for the Championship.......And I would like to see u again dunking over Duncan's head and silencing the crowd......Hahahahahahahahaha ^ ^)
5月17日 >>\...Angel.../<<She's like an...angel......a perfect artwork blessed with beauty and delicacy......
Compared with others in the heaven, Angel has the most charisma......She does not a beauty who always show indifference like the Snow Queen living in the Palace of Lapland......but passion and gentleness as well....... Exteriorly, she is lovely and tender......However, she is brave and tough-minded inside.......That's what helps her soar in to the sky with nothing attached on her strong and beautiful wings....... >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>. Unfortunately, Angel only lives in the myth......in an imaginary wolrd that we are not able to touch or get close to......... So......she does not live in this real world......or in my life...... What reflected into my eyes are nothin' but illusion........that's it......! I can not fall in love with an angel in the heaven....... 'cuz I'm only a man in the street...... 5月10日 Gone Mad...Days ago, I was badly scolded and...maybe..."lectured" by my bro.. The words were like rainstrom plus tornado, punching and striking me all over.
I was quite shocked by what he said......which really made me out of temper. But I could not fight back 'cuz, meanwhile, I felt helpless and regretful......Those "f*cking" words, though a bull shit, were reasonable anyway......My bro. did observe and reveal my own problems, which hurt me and also embarrassed me most...... I really gonna "TMLGDD"[Chinese words for short...just guess...] go mad after recognizing those existing problems of mine.......
I feel angry not as some of my habits and ways of thinking are really bad in nature, but as I'm not able to change some of them which had already shaped long ago.......These habits and ways of thinking make me different from other college students......They make me not into a fine man but a "unwelcomed" person.
My friends and those who know me a little can tell that I'm not bad in nature......'cuz I'm perseverant, simple and honest. And I have a sense of responsibility. Maybe neither of them feels disgusted with me......But sometimes, my ways of thinking are really different from others'. Some are unreasonable and weird while I can't find out anythin' abnormal......What's worse, I often offend some one unconsciously and I still can't understand the reason. In my way, it can't not be offense since, in my own experience, it could not be as my parents and other family members taught me.....My way of thinking and talking sometimes hurts my fellows......What's worse, I can accept or fully comprehend the reason why they're upset when they tell me the truth.......That means we grow up from different background, and the education we got are also different.......And the one I got is so distinct that few of them have experienced......As a result, they can't understand me sometimes, and find my ways of thinking weird and ridiculous......... Actually, I have a great feeling of self-comtempt and anxiety......not confident enough and often have a pessimistic thinking at the first hand once issues occur.......I have to say that I want to have some changes on myself and become a college student like others.......But those damned habits and stereotypes always fail me in the end.........Why!!!!!!!????? Scientists say that personality and character of a man are shaped when he was teenage or younger, and they are quite hard to change as he's grown up.......Maybe the education I got from primary school and middle-school ruins me a lot. But I don't resign to the fact easily. I tried, but it did not work well.......The influence is that great???!!! How!!!???
Compared with my friends and other guys in campus, I want to challenge myself........ "Are really U mentally damaged ???!!! Somethin' wrong with your mind???!!! Jesus........." "Ah......I got the point.....that's why no girls want to accept your propose or would like to see u as her boyfirend.........Bingo!!!" 4月26日 All about Basketball...Chapter 4We, the English United, lost the game in the semi-final yesterday......Our journey is over. We have to face the truth that the Elders United is stronger than us. Little Mike is right: Truth always hurts......
But I have to say that it's a great match for both of the two teams......The Elders United played their way as they kept pressuring us by constant fastbreaks......Though we discussed about the stratedy, it's much harder to make it in the real match since the rhythm is faster than we expected. However we still did a very good job on the half-court defense. We did box-out well and played tough in the paint. Our rebounding was good both defensively and offensively......In the first quarter, Aaron was not so hot like before while "Kobe Yan" was completely on fire!!! He himself hit many difficult jumpers though some of them were not wise decisions......Wally also contributed a lot on the offense by 3 pters and some effective drives......I just finished my work on rebounding and defense. Not a bad job as I'd got 6 rebounds in this quarter. We started the 2nd quarter by 1 lead.
In the 2nd quarter, Star came to play. For some reason I could not tell, our defense began to collapse and the game was in the Elders' control. They made many fastbreaks and immediately took the lead. We called time-outs which still could not work. We all lost our own rhythm and were pushing around by them. Many turnovers occurred which gave them lots of chances to get easy pts by fastbreaks. At the half-time, we trailed by 13 pts!!!!!!!
In the 3rd quarter, finding our own way back for the play, we became much better than the 2nd quarter. But our toughness made us pay a lot......Aaron, "JW Yao" and Wally all got into foul-troubles. It disabled us to arrange we five starters to play together for a full quarter.......Fortunately, our defense was better and we did not lose more......Aaron & "Kobe Yan" kept struggling to score and made the score closer......
The 4th quarter......was the one that we were satisfied most......Thinking about nothin' concerning win and loss, we completely came back to our track and played with all the efforts......We enjoyed ourselves in the play and worked hard on every move......No complaint or blame on each other......Our hardworking play really bothered the Elders as they could not score easily or get every rebound as they expected.......We made the score much closer. We united and took the last fight. Once we should have got chances to tie the game, but we trailed too much at the first half and could not help with it.......Finally we lost by 8 pts...........
Time to go home......The sem-final is the destination of this journey.........But we are happy with this result. At first we really did not expect that we could go this far.......This is a big surprise!......And I'm very proud of our teamwork and the efforts of every one of us......We indeed play like a team.......We have the understanding of teamwork which other teams can not comprehend that much......I appreciate all of your work. Thanks for all ur support and trustment to me. Actually I do not deserve that as I'm not competent in my point of view.......I should have done better as a capt.. I will cherish all of them and also kept this memory in mind forever........Sooooo unforgetable......
We still can play together in next Beiwai cup, am i right???? ...We are still one of the best, right???? ^ ^Haha...
Give all my thanks to my teammates: Aaron, Wally, "Kobe Yan", "JW Yao", Wu Jian, & Coach Charley......
Also to the our fans......though I can not name u guys out......Especially to the two nice girls in Wally's Class......
Special thanks to Little Victoria. U r the best statistician i've never seen before......Ur tough and responsible attitude moves me a lot!!! Give full of my credit to your perfect job!!!
We gonna start another Legend!!!!!!!!
The End......
4月24日 All about Basketball...Chapter 320 minutes ago, the game was over with the last whistle.......We beat GuoShang in the 1st game in the 2nd round!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wowwwwwwwwwwwwwww...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! By 12 pts............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is unbelievable that the 6 six of us did the miracle again!!!!!!!!!!!!! No...it's not coincidence or miracle.......This is what we are!!!! We are one of the best teams!!!!!!
We played with good strategies, good rythm and good chemistry that we've never had......Aaron was on fire again!!!!! He grabbed 19 rebounds and about 20pts.......What a monster!!!! Wally also played very well with great scoring and rebounding as well.......Our Gs, "Kobe Yan" and "JW Yao" also did a great job on controlling the rythm, defense and assists. Many steals had "Kobe Yan" got. Our coach, Charley, also did well on PG's job and good strategies making, and time-out was also very wise......With a foul-trouble before the end of the 2nd quarter, I did not play well in this game and could not give all of myself into the play........I got 5 pts, 7 rebs, 2 assists and 2 blks........Not a good job for a C and also a capt. of the team............However, we won the game........That's the very thing I should care. The whole team matters most........
We gonna step into the semi-final.......and the opponent is "Elders United"........A very tough team: (1). Mike Lancia------our school team coach and also the 2 straight "Best Defensive Player" in the US in high-school career.......(2). Jerry------the capt. of the school team, talented and experienced.......(3). Ricky------Jerry's classmates in high school. From Lin Ye University[do not know the exact spelling...-_-|||]. A very strong and fast Guard. Smart play and good awareness all the time. The Lin Da's school team's PG.......(4). Other seniors in Asia and Africa [introduction omitted.....^^].............
Maybe they are the biggest difficulty we've ever seen.......But no matter how strong they are or hwo would they play, we just do our best and enjoy ourselves in the game.......No pressures about win or loss......I believe it's a big match and a fantastic one as well as the NBA Finals!!!!!!!
Elders, see u in the semi-final......u'd better watch out......^^
To be Continued...................... All about Basketball...Chapter 2>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
1st game......vs Spanish......We found little team chemistry and had lots of Tos. We were all not like playing ball. We played without thinking, had no control and lost rhythm full-game......I, as a capt., played like a piece of shit.......Every move I did on the offense was nothin' but trash------0 pts.......Defense was only what I could do. But I did not do so well since I did not rebound many or get many blocking-shots. However, we, as a team, shew our activeness, toughness and braveness as well facing opponents who were taller and bigger in size. The result of the game did not come out until the last second was counted......I got the ball, drove into the lane with the pick set by Aaron, and threw myself into the air with the determination of scoring when two players were going to block my shot. I suddenly found Lu Star was wide open & made a pass. Surprisingly, another defender came out and swapped the ball out of bound at the split second when Lu got my pass......3 seconds left when Aaron got the in-bound pass.......He rivalled with time and made the last shot without enough preparation.......the ball's off the rim, and we lost by 1 point........Though we got a loss at the very
beginning, I had seen the bright future of the whole team. We played like what we were. We played with a good attitude and a hard-working team spirit . This is what I appreciate and stress whenever or wherever we play games as a team, and also the most valuable and important possession to our team.......Assume that lots of skillful and talented players form a team, and some of them have the skills on the All-Star level. However, once they're lack of a good attitude towards games, showing a kind of disrespect to both his teammates and himself, this team is nothin' at all. "Victory" will never come into their careers.
2nd game......vs Japaness......Ironically, we only have 4 players on court 3 minutes before the matche began. On the other side, those Japanese had already finished warm-up. They had their own cheering team with drums and some other stuffs in their hands. Various noisy Japanese hovering around my ears, I realized that it's a competition between two nations(^_^)......Meeting my expectation, they were very hard-working and strove for every shot and rebound. Maybe it's a speciality of Japanese or Korean playing style. At the first 2 minutes, I found ourselves pushed around by them without any resistence. We adjusted in time and began to play hard with them. Both teams made lots of hustles on each side of the court. We also gave them lots of pressure by our toughness which seemed to be out of their expectation........In this match, Wally played pretty well both offensively and defensively. And Aaron was the key-player who was completely on fire!!! He kept scoring like a monster start a massacre with no mercy. His FG was 6/6 in the first half!!!!!! As for me, it's still a bad game......My left knee was badly knocked by their PG who was driving into the paint like a flash. I fell down and could not move until 2 minutes passed. Though a bruise did I get, I came back to the game later 'cuz I have to keep on fighting.......I, on the defense, did as much as I could, and I made the only shot I took in the whole game. My rebounding was not good 'cuz of the disadvantage of height compared with their PF and C, though, I could tip the ball to my teammates if I was unable to grab it. Suffering from the pain on the knee, I kept myself running the court up & down, fought with their C and PF by elbow for every rebound and boxing-out......."Kobe" Yan and Wally gave us great support by hitting the shots outside......Aaron cut and score one after another......"J. Williams Yao" did his best to stop their Gs' drive........Finally, we won the game!!!!!! By 11 pts!!!!!! This is the first win for our team.......Last time we lost to them in the Beiwai Cup last year( the players in the team were not the same like now). This time we successfully took the revenge......I reallyy would like to thank every member in our team!!!!!!......It's you guys who made it possible!!!!!!!......This is a great victory.......Pure Victory!!!!!!
3rd game......vs Asia & Africa......This time, the warm-up was nothin' but holy shit!!! Only Aaron, Wally, "Kobe Yan" and me came for the match......We did not even have 5 players!!! Counting our coach Charley, we just could play the game with no bench players. In comparision, players from Asia & Africa came for preparation one after another. They did layups and shootings together in order. This awful feeling almost killed me as I felt ourselves completely ignored and abandoned by others.......We had to run 17-60s to get warmed up......Ridiculous, isn't it???!!! But it is truth that does always hurt.........I have to follow Wally's idea that we unite and play,driven by our passion and friendship. Other teams may have their own statisticians and cheering teams who can give them cares, such as water and medical stuffs, and encouragement.......But what about us? We have nothin' but passion and willing for play.
They have King Kong, Mao Mao, Da Sha who are excellent players in the campus. However, we were not pressured by them as others expected.......Instead, facing their strong offense, our toughness helped us on the defense. Aaron, Wally and I grabbed almost every defensive reounds, and "Kobe Yan" and Charley did get some steals which enabled us to do some fastbreaks.......On the offense, we found more team chemistry among us......When I got the ball on the low post, I could clearly observe almost every move of my teammates and make good pass to them. Moreover, under the control and command of our "coach" Charley who played PG, we played with our own rhythm, and our FG% was much better than the 1st quarters of the last two games. Though once losing the lead in the 2nd quarter, we played better defense later and kept the score tied when stepping into the 4th quarter......In this quarter our offense got back to its track. And we pressured them to make Tos which helped us we regain the lead......Finally we won by 9 pts. Unbelievable!!! Confronted with this strong team who have excellent starters and good bench, we win a match played only by 5 men with a strong willing and great determination.......Actually we did not think about winning this game at any cost. We just did our best and devoted to it......And finally we did it!!!!!!
Now we are the 2nd in our group. Today we gonna face GuoShang which is No.3 in the other group.......No matter who we gonna face, we will fight to the end!!!!!!......We're a good team and not easy to get defeated.......We gonna make our own history!!! Now, we're all enjoying ourselves in basketball......we're enjoying the game with striving and sweating...... I would like to thank all my teammates for their great support to the team......!!! Aaron, Wally......Thank you!!! You two freshmen do give me such great help and support......Ur great passion to basketball inspires me to keep going......I, a incompetent capt., will keep working hard with u guys...... Charley......Thanks!!! Though u've not played for long and got much fatter than before, ur leadership and the ablility of organizing really deserve my admiration. This team can not walk so far without u...... Thank all the schoolmates who come to watch our games!!! Thank you for ur support to our team...... Today, the 1st game in the 2nd round......Win or go home......I don't care........ Just keep fighting and keep enjoying...... To Be Continued.................. All about Basketball...Chapter 1"Actually, it's a game only for entertainment and practice."......This is my orientation towards the purpose of the game series which is called Little Beiwai Cup(LBC). The idea of starting this game series is motivated by us who have great passion to basketball, and the arrangement and schedules of the games are operated without any help from officials. "Play for fun " is the principle of this tournament which, meawhile, teaches me a lot.
At the beginning, Jerry and Mike invited my team, Diplomacy Team, which is independent from the SEIS now, to this tournament. However, some of my good teammates are from SEIS and Law, especially Aarron and Wally with whom I've fight for more than half a year in the school team together. I really don't want to lose them as they, despite of freshmen, are very devoted to basketball playing, and also have the similar attitude towards playing as mine. We like our teamwork in the school team, and gonna continue it no matter what does us apart. We want to play togehter, and I get
other players who are sophomores and freshmen united........"The English United Team" is our title.......None of us have experience in the former Beiwai Cups. It's a new start for us......
Actually, this is the first time we play games together as a team. We had no practice and no strategies in the past. Skills, stamina and awareness gained in our playing age are what we can only depend on. Our team chemistry is almost nothing. The only teamwork exists among Aarron, Wally and me 'cuz we've played ball together for more than 6 months in the school team. As a result, I once told all my teammates that we anticipated this tournament for practice and preparation for the coming Beiwai Cup next semester and there was no need for us to pressure ourselves much......."Just take a right attitude to our playing and play with respect to the whole team. Find our weaknesses and solve them in the practice later......It is my fault that as a capt. I have not run any systemetical and complete practice so far. I was busy with the preparation for the BUBA in the school team as a vice-capt. weeks ago. So I almost have no energy and time for the dept. team's practice on weekends. For this sake, I really have to apologize to my teammates for my irresponsibility. I've been completely absent from my duty.
We have 3 matches in all in the first round which gonna decide ranks......We don't have as many players as other dept. teams who all have done some practice before this tournament.......They are seemed much more like "team" in comparison with us.......They do warm-up as a group, wear same jerseys and have strategies for the match. But what do we have......ugh??? Nothing......Nothin'!!! However, you're fooled......We 're not easy to defeat...... To be Continued.........
3月25日 Warmness brings......The weather's become better these days......giving us a tip that the harsh coldness has already be kicked off the earth............Quite warm recently, especially today. I would have believed that the summer's come and it's May or June now. After a match in the afternoon, I walked back school, wearing short pants. I even felt hot 'cuz the sunshine was going to burn me up. As soon as I went back to start practicing, I began to play with a suit of jersey for it's really hot. Though wind blew, it's hot and mild......Several days ago the climate can be described as "damn hell" while it's outstandingly fine now.......With my own two eyes, still hard to believe this fast change.
Maybe due to the warmness, I'm in a light mood these days, relaxed & chuffed. When playing ball, I would like to indulge myself running with no strings atteched, playing hard for every second and sweating as much as possible. I love playing with passion, and I love to sweat 'cuz it makes me be completely devoted to the game.......Hope that the weather will countinue to be like this during the BUBA matches. I don't want to be bothered by those elements caused by bad weather.......Don't bring any strong wind, drastic temperature drops or sandstorms! ! ! Please......! ! ! We have had enough since last spring. Really can not take any more......
The warmness brings less clothes to wear......^ ^...Too much clothing in winter often make me feel inconvenient & restricted. Now I don't have to "pack" myself before whenever I want to go out...No more ties...^ ^...That's just the physical freedom. This mild weather, somehow, accelerates my heartbeat.......Usually I am easy to get excited. I behave actively and impusively sometimes, gradually losing my composure.......And ideas which seldom occured to me before go into my mind one after another......It makes me restless and confused 'cuz I want to do many things but am quite confused about which to pick first.......also unable to manage a schedule for my new ideas......This is what the
warmness brings------furious fickleness.
Last night, I found that there was a little park in front of #4 dorm. Maybe I can call it a park 'cuz it's too small to call it a square, and too empty to get the name of "garden" as there's no flowers at all. However it amazed me 'cuz it's quite different from its appearance in day time. All the street lamps and ground lights were opened, and the whole scene was quite splendid and charming.......So I could not help going to take a look. I felt good when walking on the wandering paths. It's very quiet and mysterious......Although there were only lawns, trees and some kind of corridors built by gray bricks, I found it an exciting solo visit at night.......Now I think I can go there whenever I feel bored or too much pressured. At night, this little piece of greenness can help me release my anxieties and pressures.......Making friends with the nature is one of the most common interests of human beings but is also the most meaningful one.......
However there's one thing I have to mention......There are soooooo many couples in the park once the night falls. They behave differently.......some may hold each other in the arms, some may kiss, and some gonna $&^#&*^%~^{}L: (^_^).........It is easy to make people feel embarrassed......So I want to make a little wish here: I hope to gain a little space given by those couples in order to release my anxiety and anger. And meanwhile I can enjoy my solitude^ ^. We are living in a "Harmonious Society" and we need to give each other a hand based on the same understandings and goals. 3月11日 ......10 Years Ago......[Completed]Chapter [ 1 ]
Yesterday one of my roommates was enjoying the music with his new bought sound box......Suddenly, a classical and familiar song came to my ears.......It's "No sleep without you" ( "孤枕难眠" in Chinese).....by Emil Chou. In a blink my memory flashed back to the days 10 years ago......The whole MV occurred to me, and then pictures of those days displayed right in front of my own two eyes, vivid and lively......It went back to the time when I was still in primary school.
I could remember the days when I played with my good friends......6 of us......we were quite intimate like a family. Invisible trust and privity stayed among us....... Listening to that song, I could even breathe the air of those days, fullfilled with warmness & happiness.......Going back to the past, this feeling is very exciting......really somthin' ! ! !
I was 10 years old, studying in Grade 4 in primary school. That was the first time I learned about pop music and the first singer I knew was Emil Chou. His songs possess a special charisma that instantly get my attention......his voice is indeed attractive and full of emotion. My acquaintance to him was all due to a tape bought by Xiong( of course a "bear" ^ ^......). At that time, the 6 of us would gather at Qing Jie's home in the noon break, sitting around a table on which a walkman layed with a sound box connected......Accompanied with Chou's songs, we chatted, read comics, wathched TV,
enjoying every second together......After school, we gonna go to Jing Jie's home together, do homework and then go out for fun. Sometimes I would work on my own comics with Jing Jie, of whom I was the prentice, 'cuz we were both fascinated with comics. It was always Uncle Chou's songs that saw us through every difficulty.
That period of time was indeed a hardship for me.......the toughest experience I've ever had......Those days meant too much to me......I dare to say it one of the most unforgetable period in my life......3 years long, from Grade 4 to Grade 6......I lived every day like living one year. I fully understood the essential meaning of the adj. "endless".........
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What will a student in primary school feel if both the literature teacher and maths teacher despised and mocked him all day long......? ?
What would an 11-year-old kid think and response when he was ceaselessly humiliated by the two teachers on his personality......? ?
What is his mental condition if the teachers always chillily turned their backs to him when he indeed needed guide and encouragement......? ?
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Chapter [ 2 ]
That is the later part of my life in primary school......Although I wanted to be a real man, I still can't help tearing sometimes 'cuz the mental shock was so tremendous that I could not stand......The mocks and insult aimed not only to me, but also to my dear father ! ! ! Frustrating his hope and faith in me ! ! ! They also despised his job and showed scorn to his life 'cuz they believed that a director was absolutely not well-educated and even foolish on educating his kid......They thought a director and other personnel doing art and entertainment are no doubt uncivilized ! ! ! God......How dare they say that? At that time, I often doubted if they were really competent to be a teacher......The answer is NO DOUBT " NO " ! ! !.........
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Had they ever think about the feeling of a immatured boy when he, day after day, was surrounded and annoyed by those satiric words......? ? ? ! ! !
I could not do maths well or write beautiful articles......and that really meant that my life and my father's life were nothing but a failure? ? ? ! ! !
When I got in trouble, a teacher should give helps sincerely 'cuz it's his or her duty.......But what da you idiots doing ? ? ? ! ! !.....
You would rather push me into the gulf and it really gonna make u guys HAPPY ? ? ? ! ! !.......
I'd had enough of all of that ! ! ! Why u are such crucial to me ? ? ?......Had I owe you anythin' ? ? ? ! ! !......Why did you do me like that ? ? ? ! ! !
Anything good came from it, ugh ? ? ? ! ! !
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I'm not exaggerating anything here. I just tell it as it is.......That kind of shock is really unable to be measured.......How many cuts had it given to my little heart ? Uncountable......Fortunately, I still have the company of my friends. Every one is warmhearted. We united and formed a family. Whenever I was badly hurt by my teachers outside, I could hide myself in this shield, safely healing my cuts and wounds......You can't imagine how much I yearned for the ending of a school-day. I could enjoy the sense of saftey with the union of us.......It was transitory but sweet......It was the force of friendship that pulled me back from cliff of self-abandonment.......Once I really hated study as my confidence and faith were terribly ruined by my teachers. I felt disgusted with anything about study......Most of the time I strolled around in the streets, and nearly became a hooligan. But finally I got back to track and mended my behaviors......Why? 'Cuz friendship saved me at the rushing time......At that tough time, we listend to Chou's songs together, tried to taste every word in the lyrics and got the inspiration as much as possible......We forgot the annoyance in school and indulgently enjoy every second in the music. The cuts in my heart gradually healed along with those charming songs......My passion had never gone 'cuz of the force of music.......................................
Now, the 6 of us are still keep in touch with each other.......Every vacation we gonna gather and enjoy some days together.........The friendship shaped since we were young have never changed......
Now, Uncle Chou's "No Sleep without you" is still playing in my earphone......and my life is still going on.......
Now, I still can breathe the familiar and memorable air, still can see every picture we were together......
The End......? ? ?
Extra Chapter :
Actually the feeling of love is blessed by Chou's songs.......I began to like a girl in my class since I was 9 years old. I think it can not be defined as love 'cuz love is somethin' rational in some way and I was quite immature that time.......Listening to Chou's songs, I could find some inspirations of love and emotion. They were just speaking to me, express all my feelings and understandings.......Whenever I heard the songs, I would think about her, stay blank and be unable to focus on any other things.......Hehe, that's a memorable past 'cuz I firstly got the feeling of love. Though everything came to be a failure, I would not complain about anything 'cuz I tried......
Old songs, old pictures and some special things can make you recall some parts of your past all of a sudden......That's quite common but still very exciting sometimes.....We should not forget our past 'cuz it is past, unable to be back again........Maybe it's bitter and tough, it's all worthy for learning. If it's a fantastic or happy one, just say congratulations and it's time for enjoying our life. ^ ^
3月4日 Mysterious Chinese CalendarI think I'm a antheist since I was born. But I do have to admit that somethin' is really mysterious.......
What I refer to is "Chinese Calender"....................
There is a saying that "if you couldn't see the moon which is covered by the clouds on Aug 15th, you gonna certainly come up with a snow fall on Jan 15th next year"......This is a natural law told by the Chinese Calendar. Our ancestors drew this conclusion from their experience carried on from generation to generation. They thought there were cerntain patterns between the disappearance of the moon and the snow.
On Aug 15th last year (on Chinese Calendar), I did not find the moon hanging in the sky 'cuz of too many clouds. I suddenly recalled the old saying above-mentioned and doubted that if the snow would fall on Jan 15th in the next year......Once I made a wager with my friends on this. They all didn't have any idea about this old conclusion and then took this wager confidently. Actually it has no basis in terms of science. The bet was quite risky for me. I dared to make it 'cuz I had seen this phenomenon years ago. I thought it might be right in some way though I was quite insure bout it.
Today is Jan 15th on the Chinese Calendar, and I suprsingly find that it really snows! ! ! How amazing it is ! ! ! It happens again......
This snow is totally unexpected to my friends. Yes we all have not got any traces of its basis on the scientific level. But it just happens like it is. This very mysterious phenomenon confuses us......
I can't put my finger on it......Since we are in primary school we have been teached in an materialism way.......No magical power or any gods in the world......But this snow is inexplainable by science. It is not a natural law defined by any scientific knowledge.......(maybe there is an explanation, but I haven't find it 'cuz I'm not well educated in this field......)......Is there any supernatural power in our life? ......I'm not kidding 'cuz today's snow really amazed me. And the same thing have happened in my life for 2 or 3 times since I was born.........Very mysterious thing! Scared me a little.
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And this damned snow ruined our practice! ! ! Our team do not have much time indeed! We have no more time to lose 'cuz next month the BUBA will begin......We need full preparation mentally and physically.......
If any one could give me an appropriate answer to this phenomenon on the scientific level, please leave a message and I would really appretiate your answer anyway......Thanks! ^ ^
And the old saying in Chinese is "八月十五云遮月，正月十五雪打灯"......Is that always true? I've no idea....... 2月20日 Search My Conscience......Lying on bed, I don't know why I can't fall asleep......Maybe the caffeine takes effect......
Quite bored, I begin to review things happened in the past semester......Pondering over them, I suddenly get something clear......A big fact that is so obvious but could not be realized for long......
Sometimes, I would complain about being a bachelor. The older I grow, the more I will grumble......I am often confused about the reason why no girls would like to come on to me or even pay any attention......I am often annoyed and disgusted about being refused by others while still knowing nothing about the reason......I just blindly keep complaining, on and on......But what makes it like that? Have I ever really thought about it? Only 'cuz I'm a "deuce-ace" as my nick name tells?
Perhaps it's not that coincidental......
First, take a look of myself......I have a very plain look but a kind heart, I think. Though a nice appearance, somehow, can decide whether a male is well liked, good personality is the key. In this aspect I can be confident enough......So it's not my plain look that knocks me down.
Second, turn to my personality, or rather character......what kind of man am I?......Tell like it is, I'm traditional and a little conservative......I don't like to put much attention or money on dressing...I don't like to try to be in style...I don't like to go out for shopping, playing or eating...I don't like to search for something thrilling and exciting...I would rather stay inside, reading some books with beatiful songs lingering around my two ears...And, unlike many of today's young men, I prefer cooking a lot. I see it a hobby and also a necessary skill in life...I'm fascinated by it 'cuz your imagination and innovation are unstrained when you are working on it...It can not only satisfy the desire of creating but also be good for choosing balanced diet...That's why I am saying I'm quite traditional......
Do girls like such kind of man now? I'm afraid not......They need their boyfriends to go out for fun with them. They like to see their boyfriends follow the fashion and do somethin' new and challenging. They need their boyfriends to be talkative and humorous so that they won't get bored. That's what a man should be like in many of girls' opinion. However, that's just what I am not good at......I'm not well-connected and not attractive in this perspective.
Third, let me see my hobby......Do I have any hobby in my life? Of course I do! Besides of cooking and music, I love basketball......I dare to say that I'm madly in love with it......I'm crazy about this game......I'm quite devoted and true to this great game......I would like to spend lots of time on it for improving my skills and condition in the play......I can forget anything annoying and depressing when I'm playing it......I even can sacrifice some of my studying time for playing......In my opinion it's worthwhile......In my spare time, I spend most of it on basketball 'cuz it makes me happy and relax. Though sometimes the training is torturing and exhausting, I'm loving it 'cuz I'm happy when seeing any improvement......This is my biggest hobby! This is basketball!
In this sense, I seldom have time or energy on anything else......I don't have much time to look for other entertainments......I don't have much energy to take care of the girl I love 'cuz I know it requires much of my time and energy if I want to be responsible as I basically demand......Now, except for study, basketball is more important than any other things after class......I can't live without it as I'm so devoted and could not allow myself being distracted......
So finally I know why I often have cold feet when I talk and imagine about falling in love with a girl......Actually, I'm responsible and concentrated when I'm doing anything I consider important to me. I will not allow anything else distracting or influencing me while I'm doing my job......Love really requires a great sense of responsibility for which a man should give anything in the world. To be honest, I can not promise that I will take good care of a girl when I'm so busy and absorbed in basketball and study now. So I often tremble whenever facing this reality......I am far from being ready to love......I'm far from being competent......
I have nobody or nothing to blame......I indeed should not complain......This is what I have chosen by myself......Nothing else makes you be a bachelor but you......
Now I finally realize it......So slow am I in thought, ugh? Quite ridiculous......
"Jason, stop grumbling and just keep doing your job......Complaining less while working more, you may be much more excellent than what you are now."
Thinking about this, I'm gratified......Making it clear, I'm not that anxious or worried like before......
I really do not have to be anxious to search for love in campus......What is love for? Love is finally for marriage......After graduating, working for more than 10 years and stepping into my thirties, I still have oppotunities to love and marry a girl like other men in the world do.......and then enjoy what marriage and family bring to me......
That's the essence of happy......That's just enough...... 2月19日 New LessonToday is only one of the 42 days in this winter vacation......But uncommon thing happens, which brings terrific influence to my basketball career. Maybe I will not have such an experience like that in the future......
2:30PM, I arrived at the sports field as usual and got down to running......After 3 laps, I found a figure that was outstandingly tall, standing beside the track while watching me......I couldn't figure out who he exactly was 'cuz no glasses worn......When I got close, I was greatly surprised......It's my classmate in both primary school and middle-school, who now is a professional player in Beijing Team in CBA......We kept in touch by sending SMS when we were in Beijing but not frequently. We once talked about playing ball together when we back to Jinan in this Chinese New Year Holiday. But I really didn't expect that he would come today.
It seemed that he'd been told that I would come to the sports field and have training every afternoon. After I finished running, he immediately began to teach me something useful. I felt a little amazing 'cuz he was ready to do it before he came......Very very exciting to me to have such a cherish basketball lesson from a professional player......I told him what kind of training I was taking these days and also the trainings in college. Then he gave me some suggestions on conditioning practice and also some useful skills in the game......Gradually, I found that I was being confused by myself for a long time while realizing nothing......
It is me who have been always making my play difficult and complicated.
I, for some time, am attracted by those terrific and fantastic moves of the NBA players. I'm quite eager to learn how to do that in the game. But it's somthing hard that could not be learned and mastered in a short period of time. Sometimes I'm really depressed when practicing and feel a little disgusted about this. It brings bad influence to my play in the game. I often silly moves which are totally unreasonable and out of my ability. But I didn't get out of my stupid ideas about making doing cross-overs and other beautiful moves like LeBron James, T-Mac & Baron Davis etc. I was often confused and played poorly 'cuz the way I play did not fit me. And I once believed that power and great stamina greatly make the difference between win and loss. So I just kept running every day and did lots of physical exercise. No doubt that now I have much better stamina and power than before. However, I depend on them too much in the game. I ignored the importance of thinking, running in the court blindly. I neglected the skills of saving my strength, and my awareness declined gradually. What I was doing was like a rude and stupid bull......Being taught by him, I finally realize all of those foolish ideas......
As a SF/PF, I don't need to imitate the G's moves 'cuz they can't be frequently used in the game. And they may often directly cause the waste of good offense oppotunities. Not a wise choice for me to make drives and shots complicated.......Beautiful moves are not always useful......Playing the same position, he taught me some simple but effective moves and tricks......really good and simple ones that I completely ignored before. And he told me that smartness is the most important element which determines the result of the game. Having good stamina, I once forgot how to play wisely and efficiently. Those nice fakes and little tricks help a lot in the game though they are not eye-catching moves. I really should keep this principle in mind......Be smart and calm......
Actually, these principles are basic and simple ones which are often easily neglected and forgoten by us. He just helps to remind me those very important things a rookie should remember. However, I really gained much and began to get back to the right way......Quite appreciate this great lesson though it's just a kid's playing to him......
"Thank you! For all you have taught me! I'm quite looking for the really game between us several days later......though it's a big challenge for such an amateur like me ^ ^"
Time to go back to my own track! ! !
Never give up......Never be satisfied...... 2月17日 Chinese New Year's EveAnother Chinese New Year(Spring Festival) is approaching again......Everthing is similar as those past ones......
Not so exciting like the time when I was a little kid......I'm a Man now......
Not so stuffy 'cause I can share this evening with my grandpa and aunts......I'm not Alone......
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Walking on the street alone just now......
So noisy 'cause the firecrackers unceasingly blew up in the air......really drove me mad......
So silent 'cause I found no one on the street......only the street lamps knew that I was lonely with my heart......
......However it's not so sympathetic......I'm already used to my solitude for long......
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"Have you matured, Jason?" God asked.......
"No......" I reply after a moment of silence......
"How can it be?"......He was a little curious......
"I can not tell......Just realize that I've a lot to learn......many different things......"
"Not satisfied with youself ? "
"Never......"
"En......Matured a little, junior ^_^" He smiles......
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Just have a review on myself......
What I have done in the past year?..........Nothing impressing or outstanding......
Any regrets?.........Some, but not much 'cause I had done what I need to do. Mind can not always change everything.....
Effort is good-natured before it transforms into coercion. Never push too hard on myself 'cause I'm not invincible.
This Chinese New Year's Eve is common......but still a good one. Quite influencing......for me......
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One more thing.......Happy Chinese New Year ! ! ! 2月9日 Rookie......I've taken my basketball training for 2 weeks......I feel a little frustrated about my job 'cause I'm not satisfied with my "improvement"( if I can give such a definition)......I've got little progress on dribbling, handling, and, for the most, SHOOTING! ! ! I'm terribly trapped by what I used to be good at......Quite depressed~~~~~~......It seems that the more I shoot, the lower FGP I have......What's wrong with me? ? ? -_-|||
And I'm confused by my practice of conditioning. Now I run 4000m every day( I used to run 3000m before coming back to Jinan) and 4 or 5 sets of 17-60s. I thought I could be tougher and more conditioned. However I'm easier to get tired! ! !......WHY ! ! ! ? ? ?......When I wake up every morning, I'm soft all over and also sleepy......That means my stamina is much worse than before. And when I feel that I'm slower than before when doing 17-60......quite hard to accelerate......I don't know why I'm getting worse though I take harder practice from which I though I could quickly benefit......They should not be going like this! ! !......What's wrong with me? ? ? ! ! ! -_-|||
Maybe time will prove, but I really do not have much time left before the new semester starts. And I do not have much time before the BUBA. I eagerly need great improvement. But if every thing continues like this, all my efforts will fail and I will let every player of our team down when they see my play again. I'm a vice captain! I can not be like that! Otherwise I just have one choice left......Quit......> > > > > >
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One year and a half ago, I was acquainted with a brother who was 4 years older than me, playing ball quite well. This time we met again when playing half-court 4 on 4, and he told me what I should work on according to my play. Then I found that those practice was quite basic, set for improving handling and foot work. These basic practices are all necessary if I want to make every little moves smooth and polished. And I also watched some videos about basic basketball skills practice which I once had ignored.......There are really many little and important thin's to work on. My ignorance and misunderstanding about playing directly lead to my bad performance in full-court games. Now I have to spend 1 hour and a half on practicing different dribbling skills and also foot work......I've played basketball for more than 5 years. This is the first time I realize that I am quite lack of basic skills and undetstandings about basketball. I'm still a pure rookie in the court. I still have many to learn, comprehend and practice.......But time is limited.......Hope that it's not tooooooooo late for me to realize real basketball.
I'm still a rookie......disappointed while gratified......
Quite shameful that I just know what I should work on after blindly and stupidly playing ball for 5 years......What have I done these years? ? ?
Quite cheerful that I now have realized somethin' important and beneficial to my play......I wish I can gain as much as possible......
"No more remorse on basketball......I can NOT take any more......" 1月29日 A Sense of Safety......>>>>>>>> Now......in Jinan......>>>>>>>>
Less annoyance......less anxiety......less fear......
My life comes back to my favorite style: Reading, playing basketball, cooking......
I can't exactly tell why I love such kind of living. I just like it......it makes me feel happy, calm, and......safe.
Every day I am almost engaged in the same things. In the morning, I read novels or study in the balcony. Then I will prepare for the lunch......chop, slice, dice, peel, carve......At about 11:40 AM, I gonna get down to cooking, and it may take 20 minutes. 12:00 AM is our lunch time which I had already known since I was 4 years old. In the noon time, I may take a nap for half an hour and then it's time to go out for basketball training. I start out at 2:00 PM, heading for Shan Shi University which is just 5 minutes ride from home. I would finish a 4000 km run, 3 sets of "17-60s" and 5 sets of "flying iron cross" before working on ball handling. This conditioning training is exhausting but still necessary for my full-court playing. Then I would play half-court games with my old friends for 1 hour and a half or more......Then I go back at about 4:45 PM. In the evening, I will do somethin' physical such as push-ups, lifting weights and invisible chairs. It will cost me about 2 hours in all. Then I may do some reading or watch NBA games, Korean serials if I am tired. Go to bed at
about 0:30 AM after a nice wash for relaxing.
This is my schedule for a whole day......Quite regular and......boring, ugh ? ? ? ^ ^
However I like it much and would stick to it when a holiday starts. I'm sick of loudess that is filled with kinds of noises. I would prefer a moment of silence than indulging myself to the sea of noisy crowd. My living style is quite different from other undergraduates in this new century. Some one can not understand the reason why I take this kind of life for the No.1 choice. Actually I can't give the answer myself......Maybe it's determined by my character and habits formed since I was quite young. It seems that I am a traditional and a little conservative man......Yes! I AM! I can not deny.
Some of my friends suggest me to have a changes of my life 'cause I may fall far behind the time if I don't follow new ways of living. They consider my favorite style old-fashioned and dull. But for me it's nothin' to be shame of. Living particularly does not mean living with mistakes.
"I've always had my own style." ^ ^
I choose it 'cause I can have a feeling of home. Once a vacation starts, my identity would have a shift from a student to a "HOUSEWIFE".......HA HA HA HA !
Just kidding......^ ^ Yes, it's such a shift that make me feel safe. While having classes in BFSU, my solitary soul can not calm down as so many work needs to be dealt with......Really hard to find a piece of silence. Sometimes I would feel helpless and lonely as if my life greatly lack of security......But when my identity changes, I can indulge myself into cooking & basketball which is a way to leave fragments of worry behind, and hide into a shield symbolizing safety. I can open up my mind and make innovations according to my imagination......"No Strings attached! "......Meanwhile, I could take good care of my family......That's toooooo GREAT ! ! ! !
I find a sense of safety......I won't be bothered by those damned trivias in campus.......I don't wanna lose this feeling......
Just wanna cherish these 6 weeks......Though it's short, it's exciting....... 1月18日 So called......"Tailender"Damned......! Damned......! Damned ! ! ! ! ! !
I met my teacher, a fat and silly guy who taught Contemporary International Issues, on my way to the dorm when I just finished my last exmination......He waved to me and told me that the grade of the final had come out. And then he blamed me immediately and questioned me if I had prepared for it or be responsible, serious enough for what I did......Too quick to response to what he had said......I didn't realize everything until he showed me the list, right in front of my face......
In my class, some (more than 7 maybe...) are above 90, and no one is under 80......except for ME......! ! ! Get a special treatment again.......
Quite shocked by the reality......I went into silent again......No one to blame but myself......
He questioned me if I held a right attitude to his subject.......and whether I had done the review for the final seriously......I had nothing to say......I didn't want to give any explanation......Any words are useless at that moment......
To be honest, I did the preparation independently.......serious......responsibly......I found the right answers to those important questions on those materials and assembled those information carefully......I spent much time writing without referring to or depending on other's answers! I dare to say I did my job individually and seriously. Then I did revisions time and time again in order to make the best. I even helped my friend who did not have enough time to do the searching 'cause of sickness......I thought I could get a grade that would not be too bad......
However, it happened like I guessed......I often make hypothesis for the worst consequence 'cause I usually have bad feelings. And, it worked again.
What can I say ? ! Still bad luck ? ! Or I don't know how to take examinations ? !
Quite confused and depressed right now......I can not find the reason......
If any one who knows it gonna despise me...........just do it as you did before......I will keep silent with no resist 'cause it's all my fault......
Sympathetic........Really Sympathetic.......
Hope that the other finals won't fail me......too much......
Hope that basketball can get me survive......I need some cure to my bleeding heart.......
What a FUCK...........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1月9日 Burst Ooooooout ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !" IF THE FINAL EXAMS GONNA GET ME SICK. . . . . . . . .
THE DOWNLOADING SPEED OF MY "BitComet" GONNA DRIVE ME MAD ALL NIGHT LONG. . . . . . . . . ! ! ! ! ! ! "
"Uploading" + "Downloading" <. . . . . . . . . .10 k/s ! ! ! !
CAN NOT HELP BUT SURRENDER > > > > > > > > > >........................................................
Wordless about this mess................ -_-|||.....................
PS: Have all kinds of exams these TWO weeks......Quite busy actually (and also become sensitive recently......just leave me alone......^ ^).
No matter what......I can fight through all of them......'cause winter vacation is approaching......
Jinan is coming......Individual Basketball Training is coming......Kitchen is coming......^ ^
Looking forward to every part of that happy time......
I will be back to the real Jason......soon......^ ^ 12月30日 > > > White World < < <Here comes the first snow......the day before the last day of 2006. The same thing happened last year......What a coincidence that created by God! Everything in my eyes now represents the soul of miracle. It's been all white outside when I woke up, looking out of the window......Having not seen such a beautiful scene for a long time, I am feeling quite excited. Just now I could not help myself rushing out to take a perfect look at the first snow of this year......Brilliant! Soooooooooooo good......I haven't enjoyed the weather like this for quite a long time......
I love white......shining and simple......This charming color symbolizes immaculacy, innocence, simplicity......I have a feeling of getting refreshed head and ears. This snow purifies my heart, which is seriously hurt and polluted in my life. With the protection of snow, I dare to take off my shield and completely immerge myself into this purified world......I can have no concerns, no fears, no sorrows at this transitory moment. I hope I have the power to freeze the time......do not let this perfect beauty slip away......However, I can't make it as I'm only a common human who's only 21 years old. At this very moment, I really wish to live in the world of a fairy tale......
What does snow mean? It also means love......Recently I'm watching a Korean TV series named "The Snow Queen", a love story that touches me often. It's not so classic as some former ones which were given great credits. But in my opinion it's good and I'm a little absorbed by its touching plot. This story concerns snow and love. Love, in this story, seems to be hard and unreachable......Difficulites seperate the passion for love from happiness......People are lonely and helpless 'cause they indulge to love for some fatal reasons.......Quite a tragedy......~~~~~~~~
In the reality, I also have difficulites that I'm quite reluctant to mention......The only solution is to bear them in my heart and try to shift my foucs in some other things. Every one may certainly have a similar feeling like me. I also, for some fatal reasons, can not choose love now. The dilemma is so hard to deal with that I will be like playing a role of a love story whose ending is born to be tragic if I choose to have a try. I may tortures at first because I have no where to tell......Well I believe I gonna recover once I forced myself to face the unchangable situation and keep being cold-blooded......I'm a man with conscience and kindness......I will not choose to do anything immoral. In this sense, my choice will work......This cold world makes me a little gloomy 'cause I feel lonely when walking in the snow. I associate the coldness with the reality too much......Hope that this beautiful snow can pull me back and make me purified again. My solitary soul need to be refreshed......
A brand new year is approaching......maybe I should step into a new era with a whole new heart......
>.>.>.>.>.>.>.>.>......................
"If I am Kay......Who will be my Snow Queen......?"
I'm waiting......on and on...... 12月11日 Korean MVFascinated with Korean pop music for more than half a year......maybe almost 10 months. Of course I don't like them all. Ballad is actually my favorite. Quite touched whenever I listen to them......walking on the street, laying on my bed or running on the racetrack. I'm not that kind who is wrapped in popular culture, no matter domestic one or foreign one......Maybe the work my family members do makes me feel so familiar with entertainments that I am not curious
or fascinated with them......Even for some time I hated to touch it when I was in primary school and junior school 'cause I was determined not to continue the career my father was running. Just wanted to be independent and walk my way......(I know it's an extreme conception, but it's understandable as I was far from mature 10 years ago...)......
Months ago, influenced by my on of my friends, I was encountered with Korean music. It didn't catch my attention immediately at first. However, after appreciating some pieces of it, I was attracted without consciousness......I did not know why I kept listening to them whenever I turned on my computer. I could not help keeping them playing while I was doing my homework or surfing online. The songs I like most are ballads, which are quite soft and slow. They, most of them, are about love, and sometimes tragedies.......Often feel quite touched by every note though I understand none of Korean. Then, I searched some pieces of Korean MV, downloaded them and frequently watched them once I wanted a rest in my dorm. Gradually I was fascinated with those MVs. I must say......wonderful! Two thumbs up! Korean is very accomplished in producing MV, especially for those ballads. They can directly and clearly deliver out the meaning and the emotion in the song through reciting stories.
I can see various relationships between friends, relatives, couples......drastic conflicts can perfect the songs and impress me greatly. Those love stories are quite touching and attractive......But those sincere loves are often ended as tragedies. I find those tragedies unaffected. Plots are coherent and convincing which are performed by handsome guys and beautiful girls. I'm surprised that I watch them as watching some Korean movies. Korean MVs inherit the
virtues from the movies, which often make me moved. However, in China, I seldom find the same kind of MVs that can compete with the Korean ones. Every time I watch them, I am quite absorbed in those stories.
Now sometimes, I also go to download some lastest songs after watching their MVs showed in the music TV programs. I want to keep this hobby. Those MV and songs have become a part of my life. Whenever I watch them, I can taste the sweetness and bitterness of life. Though I can't see deep educational meanings much, I can discover many facts in the real life. Don't take it for granted that those stories are just illusive and absurd 'cause those endings are quite tragic. In our daily life, I admit that tragedies would not occur frequently. But thinking from other point of view, we can learn sth from them......Can we find some excellence of the nature of human being ?......Can we guarantee that we can certainly sacrifice for our lovers or relatives if necessary ?......Can we guarantee that we have completely understand the meaning of love while despising those plots that are considered to be false ?
Life is filled with tragedies............
Once we learn to cherish the ones we love and our own life, tragedies will be no more............
Korean MV Recommended......> > >
"The Day", "Love" ---- SeeYa & Brown Eyed Girls, "Only Wind" ---- SG Wannabe & Kim Jong Kook
"Grace" ---- Lee Soo Yong " Words Hard to Say" ---- Lee Seung Gi "Because I'm a Girl" ---- Kiss
"Timeless" ---- Zhang Liyin & Xiah "Partner of Life" ---- SG Wannabe "Like a Man" ---- FTTS
"Throw My Fist" ---- Shinhwa "Crazy Love Song" ---- SeeYa "Key Of Heart" ---- BoA
"Find the Way" ---- Bada
12月3日 Advertisement......Adidas......Quite boring tonite......and no mood for study any more after 2 hours reading of International Financial Theory. As my mind was wandering around, I wanted to write sth intersting......Ha :-]
Here are 3 different versions of the new Adidas advertisement......Just for fun~~~~~~~~~~~~
(I). Original Version:--------------------> > > > > > >
KG " U're fooled......" T-Mac " Every time I dunk......" G.Arenas " Get 30 or 40......"
T.Duncan " U really believe......" KG " 'cause it's all about me...?!" C.Billups " While I believe......"
T-Mac " It takes FIVE, baby!"
KG " U won't get fooled again...?"...................
(II). Rockets Version:-------------------> > > > > > >
Alston " U're fooled......" Yao "Every time we lead......" T-Mac " By the first 3 quaters......"
Battier " U really believe......" Howard " We have winned this game...?!" Head " While I believe......"
Hayes " We lose in 4TH QUARTER AGAIN...Damned ! ! !"
Jeff Vangady " U won't get fooled again...?"...................
(III). My Version:--------------------> > > > > > >
Jason " U're fooled......
every time I play Defense......
make them get nothing on their offense......
U really believe......
it's all about talent ? !......
While I believe......
it is made of ATTITUDE, man!"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ And here is sth I want to say to my teammates.........> > > > >
My band of brothers......Just keep holding a right attitude towards every training course and every match we have. Once we devote ourselves with a good attitude, abandon all our laziness, and keep practicing hard, we gonna make another tremendous improvement before long! And finally the champion is ours ! "IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING ! ! !" "BFSU! ! ! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~...................."
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